Thread:Loconator3000/@comment-5688420-20170225054529

Before any of you enter this thread I want you to  look at me. Take a good look at what I have become.

I've become a horrible stalker who was obsessed with her. Even now that i regret what i did. She still hates me, and in my darkest days, I try to commit suicide every night because it's the only way left that I can redeem myself in her eyes.

No sort of help worked on me. Not friendship. Not therapy. Nothing. I can never become my old self again, even when I try to. Knowing how the person whom I used to love now hates me. and i can't do anything about it.

Yet i still stick with you guys because friendship is what I need the most. It's what I want, nay, CRAVE the most. Of all my 17 years of being abused around by my grandparents, I just want someone who has my sympathy no matter what.

That is why i was that attached to Pauly. As the first friend I EVER made, she means a lot to me. And all i want is for her to feel the same way about me.

That's why even through everything that happened, i still love Pauly with all my heart.

She was my first friend. And she will always remain so.  