Thread:SonikkuAensland/@comment-5688420-20171014002841/@comment-5688420-20171020081945

Every day, I look at myself in disgust, knowing this was a guy who, in desperation, pretended that I was someone else, got brutally chewed out on by said person, and never got back up from that incident, as much as I tried. I told you many times how I pertty much gave in to despari, and how I just pretend to make you feel happy, because I don't want you to feel sad about me. But I'm not even that good at it. These outbursts keep on coming and are here to stay. And that dosen't even cover the torment I recieve in my daily life. Gaping scars just keep on covering me, and I feel like I'll be this way until I die or I get the forgiveness that I always wanted. And the former choice is the much easier one.

Let me take a break...