Thread:Loconator3000/@comment-5688420-20170220062228/@comment-5688420-20170225053053

you are really lucky. meanwhile, just look at me. look at what i have become. i've become a horrible stalker who was obsessed with her. even now that i regret what i did. she still hates me, and in my darkest days, i try to commit suicide every night because it's the only way left that i can redeem myself in his eyes. no sort of help worked on me. not friendship, not therapy. nothing. i can never become my old self again, even when i try to. knowing how the person whom i used to love now hates me. and i can't do anything about it. yet i still stick with you guys because friendship is what i need the most. it's what i want, nay, CRAVE the most. of all my 17 years of being abused around by my grandparents, i just want someone who has my sympathy no matter what. that is why i was that attached to Pauly. as the first friend i EVER made, she means a lot to me. and all i want is for her to feel the same way about me. that's why even throug everything that happened, i still love Pauly with all my heart. she was my first friend. and she will always remain so...